Love Songs

Love Songs 💓

 

A thousand love songs could never express how I feel right now, 

The emptiness inside my chest, 

My body caving in as my body compresses, 

Hope and faith keeping me breathing as the day begins, 

My heart sings to its own beat, 

In rhythm with the defeat, 

Pumping to stay alive, 

To pursue to survive. 

  

 

Autumn

Autumn 

 

I opened my eyes and said goodbye, 

Through the tears and the pain, 

Leaves fell as Autumn came, 

Golden brown tumbling from a high, 

Twisting and turning on the way down, 

Floating to the ground, 

I counted everyone, 

Laying at my feet, 

Ankle deep in a carpet on the ground, 

Naked and bare the trunks stand there, 

Supporting bare branches, 

Part of nature’s course, 

Cold wind blows, 

They stand there waiting until the warm wind returns, 

Leaves are born again. 

 

 

The Walk

The Walk 

 

Walking away is hard for me, 

The pain I feel want go away, 

Walking away from the one I love, 

Walking away from you, 

It’s the hardest thing I have had to do, 

You’re in my head, 

In my heart, 

Tormented is my soul, 

Not sure anymore if I can find the right words to say, 

Trying to detach from the one I love, 

Hurts me every day, 

Past is past, 

Yet the memories stay,

Reminding me of what we had, 

What has been thrown away? 

The path is long but I want stray, 

I will stay the course every day, 

Letting go I have to do, 

Letting go of you, 

I can’t stay married in your single life, 

So no longer can you be my wife, 

Friends we will see, 

The children are my priority, 

Not sure what the future has in store, 

Going forward to explore, 

I wish you happiness, 

On your way, 

For what was is in the past is there to stay, 

Not sure if you understand, 

After all I am just a humble man,  

I tried so hard to make you listen, 

However you had already made your decision. X 

Thoughts

Thoughts 

 

Open minded, 

I decline, 

Just don’t like the answers, 

Deep in thought, 

I retort with angry answers, 

Not like me to offend so easily, 

Stepping back that’s my tact, 

To get some clarity, 

Needing time to analyse what is happening to me, 

Questioning why I wanted to die, 

The answer comes so easily, 

Living life with a broken heart is what you have left for me, 

Flying free, 

Free from me that is what you have asked to be, 

To live your life happily, 

Don’t worry about me, 

Going forward is my only way, 

Living day by day, 

Hoping the pain will ebb away, 

Son and a daughter comfort me, 

They are my priority, 

To see them live their lives gives me hope, 

For what will be will be, 

To one day live my life freely. 

 

 

Warning please don't eat me,

Self tested,

Just being honest 

A new dawn,A new day, A new life for me,

Live for the day

Grrrrrrr, it's one of those days