When you love someone you love them, a passion an emotional connection a bond that you have with that special person.
When words are said with that in mind it is so hard to except rejection and hard to understand after words have been spoken and then broken.
A human mind can overload trying to understand the logic when another person tells them how they feel and go and do the complete opposite.
I now understand that you can open your heart to a human and they can tell you what you want to hear and then proceed on a course of action that can destroy a marriage and a family within seconds.
They say the truth hurts, however trying to establish the truth and understanding why a marriage breaks down is the killer.
When a relationship you thought had been built on truth and loyalty ends and you have no option but to walk away with a broken heart still knowing that you are still in love with the women that you married 19 years ago.
As a man it was the hardest path I have ever had to walk.
The emotions I was experiencing were challenging, the anxiety, the depression and the loneliness. Somehow I had to find the will to survive.
It was not easy with the highs and lows of my mood swings.
Those I thought were friends kept their distant. Other friends I could not face and I confined myself to the sanctuary of the four walls with a locked door.
It was for me to find the answers and find the strength and will to rebuild my life.
My children will always be my priority however our relation due to the breakdown of the marriage created a distance between us. I wanted to protect them from seeing their father a broken man.
The divorce was horrible, bitter and twisted.
Who was my ex-wife?
A side I had never seen, cold and calculated and unfortunately for the law was on her side.
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